It was an evening night during November in the middle of North Beach right in front of a pizza shop called Acqoulina where I met the love of my life, Christian. I remember walking up to him, nervous and a little tipsy. Just before I left my house to go on this date with C, my roommate looked at me and said " I think he's the one." I didn't think much of it because I was really trying to work on myself and loving myself during these months (and a free dinner because I was poor coming back from a month of backpacking in New Zealand.. LOL). I walked out feeling a little bit odd, so I went to the nearest bar and had a few glasses of wine. I remember walking up to him thinking WOW, I'm going to shit my pants because he is so freaking handsome. During dinner, he asked me if I was nervous and said "no." Following with the answer to that question, I choked, because I was just swooning so hard over this man that is now mine. I remember looking at him, and saying "lets go on an adventure, We can grab a bottle of champagne and head over to the Marine Headland to watch the Golden Gate Bridge glow up at night." He smiled, and said "lets do it." At this point I was about four glass deep but I trusted him enough not to take advantage of me. We headed over to the mountains, sat on a bench and chugged the bottle of Champagne. I was honestly so drunk at this point and went in for the kiss. Yeah, I made the first move. But lets be honest, I live in the non gender city. So making the first move was something normal to me. The night didn't end yet. We headed back to North Beach, to a bar and drank some more. It was about almost 2 A.M and I had work at 7. We had so much fun that we didn't want the night to end. After realizing that it was getting super late, we had to part ways. He picked me up from work the next day and the day after that. Right then, I knew he was the one. Consistently chasing after my heart and wanting to spend as much time with me as he can during his finals, was the sweetest thing ever. I went on a weekend get away with my friends to Yosemite the same week, and I missed him the whole time. Coming back to San Francisco was super exciting for me because I knew I'll see him again. The first night that I got in, he met me at the bar. I was already drunk because there's something about him that made me nervous. I remember when he walked up to me, I whisper in his ears that I'm madly in love with him. He looked at me and said. " I love you too." Reminding you this is like day six of seeing each other, and we both felt the same way. He asked me the first big question..."Do you want me to be your boyfriend?" I LOLOLOLOLOLOLOL. But thought it was pretty cute. Of course I said yes, because we're here today on our one year anniversary. Christian is everything to me and much more. He completes me. Not because I was missing a piece of myself when I met him. But I was completely myself when I met him. He challenges me and he cheers for me during my toughest time. In every fight we ever had, he always made sure I knew that I was loved. He is the one, and he is the one for me. No matter how tough our lives might be, We fight for each other. Because its forever.
Someone once said "Falling into the right relationship happens quickly. It's someone looking at you and it just feels different. It's someone taking your hand, and you're not scared to follow their lead. Falling into the right relationship means your text gets answered quickly. And plans are something they follow with. It's their word you can trust when in the past you were doubtful of everyone. Falling into he right relationship means falling together and knowing you're not the only one. It's the conversations that are sometimes difficult but you talk things out. It's not needing the time and attention of someone else because you know one person is enough. It's a future you're not uncertain of and a past that suddenly doesn't matter anymore. It's the goodbye you want to prolong. The five more minutes in bed. It's the "text me when you get home safely." Falling into the right relationship is about the little moments that begin to mean everything. It's the dinner that they grab your hand across the table. It's when you toss and turn at night and they pull you in closer. It's a look at a party and neither of you need to say more because you're thinking the same thing. It's looking at someone and just knowing even if you're scared or doubtful or unsure that just maybe, this time, you won't get hurt."
This is exactly HOW IT SHOULD FEEL. I remember writing this draft the first time, I was trying to compare my last few relationships to this one. But to be quite honest, nothing can compare to the way Christian treats me. He sees me as who I am. How he lays down with me and wipe all my tears. He is the absolute most. So if you're just getting over a relationship, I just want you to know, YOU DESERVE SOMEONE LIKE C. You deserve to be looked at like no one else in this world exists. You should be woken up by the love of your life with a warm kiss on your forehead. It should make you sing in the shower and dance around the house. It's the overwhelming "hurry up driver" feeling on your way to see him. It's the hardest goodbye and the million conversations dreaming about a future together. It's the I can't wait to marry you one day screaming kind of feeling. It's the looking into his eyes and knowing he feels the same way you feel about him. This is what you deserve.